Healing A Heartbreak

We broke up.
It's just too complicated, beyond my ability...
So I guess that this is the best...

As I said before on my last post,
I must be prepared. And even if my heart hurts like hell, And I'm holdin' on. I'm growing strong....

I have lots of homework to do, this is my life, my responsibility...
So I must make the best of it!!

I need to open a new page in life.. a better one,

Those 9 years relationship must be kept in another book, which memories will be forgotten by time. Soon it will be history....

All my friends keep reminding me that he's so not worthed, that I deserve someone better than him. And most of my friends include his best friend, said the same thing also... That he'll regret this...(And I think he does, cause he said it on his sms)

But as I said before, I want to let go...I will never regret nor questioning why. I just wanna go on with my life. I trust You, God...I trust You.

This has set a new lesson in my life, that I should depend only to God....So Thank you for making me realize before It's too late. My mom always said that, It's better to happen now than to happen when we're married. 'Cause it will hurt even more. And I believe her...

So let it heal by time...And I love you, God. I love you...

Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku...
Ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini.....
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima...

Aku memang manusia paling berdosa...
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu....
Lebih baik jangan mencintai aku dan semua hatiku...
Karena takkan pernah kan kau temui cinta sejati...

Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini dan jangan kau tangisi lagi..
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu..
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma..
Sebab rasaku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya....

Tapi bukan aku.....

Smoga saja, kan kau dapati hati yang tulus mencintaimu...
Tapi bukan aku....

I guess this song by Kerispatih represents my feeling..
Enjoy..